back from total hell

hey long time no type!
I've just been through and still am going through a journey and a half. My last post was pretty depressing, why? Because I was very suicidal and got even worse afterwards, to the point that I tried to find a good bridge to jump off of. It's a very long story but basically I ended up at the Douglas mental hospital who sent me back to my local hospital psychiatric ward where I stayed locked up for a month with people who drove me up the wall and then I went straight to rehab (the same one I went to before) for 28 days and got out July 10th. So now that's 48 days of sobriety, the longest I've been clean in almost 4 years. It's a constant struggle to stay clean but I still have help in the form of twice weekly group therapy, an addiction therapist and my regular psychologist. Plus my ever supportive bf who stopped smoking up with me and a few friends. Life is still a crazy rollercoaster but so far I've been able to handle it better than before. I'm doing my best to avoid all self-destructive behaviours, including cutting, burning, banging my head, overdosing on meds and all drugs and alcohol. I only have the occasional puff of my bf's cigarettes. I'll elaborate more on what happened to me, as I feel more and more stable which could take a while.
Meanwhile, I'm registered in psychology at Concordia University in biology, math and intro to psych. I also got accepted into a printmaking studio downtown so I will hopefully start soon making litho prints and mezzotints. I realized in rehab that I missed that art form alot. I also sing and play guitar with my bf who plays djembe and that helps us both feel good too.