finally done Rites of Death tab!

Woohoo I'm finally finished the tab! And so I share my hard work with the world right here. I'm especially proud of the solo. I'm 99.9% sure I got all the notes there. Happy dance for me!
Anyways, this is a fun song to play and I know it looks kind of scary with so many 32nd notes but I'm pretty sure you can just cheat and not play all of those chords, distortion being so forgiving and all. But it is good exercise for your strumming hand that's for sure. As usual I kind of put two guitar parts together since I like to be able to play the song by myself (not enough musician friends). But everything for the rhythm guitar is still there, it just repeats during the solo which you can hear for yourself in the song so I didn't bother putting it in another track.
Enjoy, and tell me how it goes if you dare.

Old Times Cruelty next!

gp5 file:
http://www.fileuploading.net/873181

pdf file for those of you who should just get guitar pro already:
http://www.fileuploading.net/769797

rites of death tab note

I haven't forgotten that I said I would tab a whole bunch of Antestor's songs since there doesn't seem to be any online. Although I started the tab for Rites of Death in July, I sort of forgot about it in the storm of dramatic-ness that has been my life recently. I'm nearly finished now and I have to say, it always sounds like they use weird chords that would be tricky to figure out but then I find they are sometimes just simple bar chords played in an unusual pattern or something. They're so good at using simple parts and making them sound beautiful and melodramatic.

back from the dead...again

I've just been discharged after spending a month locked up in a psychiatric ward.
I've just been through so much it's hard to know where to start. But let me say this, I am doing much better now than I was last time I wrote here.

nostalgic

Perhaps because of the similarities I seem to posess with my troubled 13 year old past self, I've started listening to one of my favorite bands of all time from my teens, silverchair. I've rediscovered their album Freak. It's so darn good right now. Especially Petrol & Chlorine and Roses. And Johns is such a good lyricist and songwriter, along with incredibly good-looking...


Daniel Johns of course in the middle, looking so good
“{On Daniel Johns} Two scoops of yum with a meow on top!”- Perez Hilton
Agreed!

about relationships...

Been working through the freedom from depression workbook and it says I have a dependent personality. Meaning my moods are too dependent on the actions of those around me. Which is odd because I've always seen myself as a sort of loner, always keeping my distance from groups of people and therefore dealing with myself independently. I've never felt I had real best friends, not that I've been hurt, just never really got that close to people who had the time to spend. But now that I think about it, I've always had someone to depend on until recently. In elementary school I had my group of popular friends until I purposely distanced myself from them, then in my teen years my mom became my best friend: we talked about everything together and she knew everything about me, even if I tried to hide anything. Then when she went off to Korea to get treatment, my guitar teacher took care of me, even to a creepy extent. And I took it for granted that he watched out for me so much and wanting me to use my musical abilities to a fuller extent, while I just saw a creepy old man telling me he loved me. I still don't know who he was exactly to me. Anyways, after my mom passed away, it was a succession of boyfriends for 5 years until last November, when I decided being so dependent on boyfriends was unhealthy so I permanently broke off contact with one of them and then fell into all this depression crap. I miss them all so much. I guess I have a dependent personality afterall. With friends who don't have the time (I don't blame them) and a dad who also doesn't have the time or energy or wherewithal (I blame him abit), I'm alone and failing. I wish I was strong and independent as I thought I was. Now I just regret everything and I'm starting to sound whiny again so I'll stop here.

2nd Christian tattoo

I got a second tattoo! Just above the first one, with the same artist since he's so awesome at shading. There's a gear, which represents me and I'm being tested and purified by fire from God which represents this hard time of my life I'm going through. When it's all done, I'll finally be ready to fit into God's plan like a cog in perfect clockwork.

It's my favorite shades of blue!

the back of it

finally a psychiatrist appt

About a week ago I finally saw a psychiatrist as part of some sort of youth program near my house. She was pretty nice. Perhaps a tad too sympathetic, at one point I ended up making her cry... But anyways, I am officially diagnosed as clinically depressed with anxiety attacks which would be the episodes I sometimes mention. She has prescribed me zoloft and rivatril. Haven't started taking them yet, mostly because I don't really want to stop drinking. Lately, it's been that and the occasional smoke that's been keeping me sane. Ah well, I've got to keep trying so I'll start them, eventually. I'm just so confused these days. Sometimes I feel like I'm totally fine and I don't need any help. I go about my daily life doing what I want to do. Other times I'm worried I'm a lazy, melodramatic spoiled brat. Or that I'm just like those troubled teen girls you always hear about or are acquainted with who are moody, depressed, may have an eating disorder, have too many boyfriends, cut themselves and of whom all you can think is "Oh boy, they're just trouble. They'll probably never be stable for long and end up killing themselves or continually live on the edge of death" It's just too easy to judge...
Oh yeah, she also says I need a good psychologist to really get better, which I totally agree with. I pray I'll get a really good one soon.