Second thing, I'm engaged! Crazy right? But I prayed about it and I think God means for us to be together. We work so well together and we support each other with each others mental illnesses. I think we're a really good match and it's a miracle that we met when we were both not doing very well. He's seen me at my worst moments, being suicidal and doing coke in front of him and he still loves me. That's really saying something. I didn't even love myself.
Third thing, I celebrated a whole year clean from street drugs at Marijuana Anonymous this past Monday! I still can't believe it! I didn't think I could do it but here I am! Life is so much better sober which is something I could not imagine in my wildest dreams before. It is such a hard road to get sober but I know God has been with me the whole way and has freed me from the prison of addiction. I still have to always be on guard against it but it is just not a part of my life anymore since I rarely get cravings. It still happens once in a while, like when I tried to quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey I had super cravings for crack and cocaine just a few weeks ago but now I'm trying to taper off instead. I had a cake and gave a speech at the meeting and people said they were inspired by me which is super nice. I'm sure my personal story could be a book one day, maybe even a movie since it's so dramatic.
Fourth thing, my dad is getting remarried this month! eek! To a lady I'm not crazy about but she is nice. She'll move in soon which will be a big change. We haven't had a boss of the house since my mom died so I wait in trepidation of how it will be. Which leads to the fifth thing, I'm moving out in August with my fiance and a good friend closer to downtown. It's exciting but scary since I've never moved out before. For the first time I'll be an adult practically speaking.
I feel like life is moving lightning fast since I'm not using anymore. I guess God thinks I'm ready to move on and become the person He wants me to be. I'm feeling good these days, I don't really get overwhelmed by my emotions anymore which is incredible, thanks be to God!
