Thanksgiving

Here in Canada Thanksgiving was this past weekend and overall I had a good time but with a few bumps along the way. For Friday night to Sunday me and my fiance went to his family's cottage in Mt.Tremblant which is a very pretty and mountainous area where skiing is popular in the winter and watching the leaves change colour is the other amazing thing to do there in the fall. It was a beautiful weekend and the food was amazing thanks to my fiance's mother's cooking skills. The only not so great thing was that I had a midterm on Tuesday on 44 different philosophers and their work which is nuts so I had to study alot of the time. Then we had Thanksgiving dinner again at my dad's house on Monday with his wife, her friend and friend's niece and my brother and his friend and my dad. I felt like it went well on the surface but there were weird moments that I picked up and some rather unpleasant moments too. First of all I do not like this friend of my step-mom's, she pissed me off alot the last couple times I saw her because she talked to me like she was a close friend (I only just met her) and therefore talked about my mom in very personal terms. It was very invasive and then she has the nerve to ask "you must miss your mom huh?" Who does that? So I was not happy to see her but her daughter just committed suicide and my parents wanted to comfort her. Her niece seemed nice on the surface but I could feel her doing that very korean thing where I could see in her eyes that she was sizing me up; "is she prettier than me? is she skinnier than me? better than me?" I could almost hear these words coming from her brain. And I don't like people judging and comparing me to others. Then she bragged about herself to my brother's friend and it seemed like she had a thing for him or just wanted to impress men. They also played their favourite music from the 70's in Korea and it is of course the same music my mom loved to listen to. It triggered my PTSD a bit with emotions coming up but I kept it together. Then on the way back home, my step-mom and friend and niece all started gossiping about a lady at church, saying her legs are 3 times as large as the niece's and that she's gotten even fatter in the past few months. I found this repulsive and hypocritical of them since I know at least my step-mom hates it when people gossip at church. Why does image and weight have to be so important to korean women? I guess it's not just korean women but it somehow seems to be a degree worse with them. I know people who are overweight and I would never put them down for it. Everybody's just different. And that's what korean people seem to have a hard time accepting. And of course it makes me want to lose weight before I ever go back to visit Korea. And to end it all my dad says goodbye by saying "you guys should exercise, you seem to be gaining weight". So, not the best Thanksgiving at least on that day.