A long awaited appointment

So I'm finally supposed to see a psychiatrist soon but now I really don't want to. I just don't see the point anymore. I've been through so much and I'm getting better and I don't think I can explain everything in just an hour since there will be no follow up. They're just going to almost arbitrarily prescribe me more meds. Plus, it pains me alot to explain my mental problems in detail. I don't know. Really, I don't know what's best for me anymore physically speaking of course. Aren't I supposed to have a better support system around me medically wise at least? It's hard to go out and figure out what programs are out there for people like me...