out of the bag

I admit I was getting careless, kind of wondering just how far I could go without my dad noticing anything or smelling anything so he found out the other day about my relapse. I talked fast, summarizing my struggles and what's been happening so I think he got the picture. He didn't blow up but told me to get over my mom already it's been many years now and to not do anything that would push him over the edge because he's at his limit and can't help me anymore. I'm not sure what that last part means but anyways that just made me feel even more pressure to feel ok which was very anxiety-inducing. Overall it went over ok I guess. I was expecting it to be worse but it sure was unpleasant.